It's Friday..

Not that there is anything important about today being Friday..
I'm in a rotten mood today.. Seems as if everything has gone stale around here.. I don't really mean stale, but I can't think of a better word to describe it.. It's as if everything has just stopped and I have no desire to make it go again.. I haven't slept for shit for the past 2 nights.. I wake up every hour and it takes at least a half an hour to get back to sleep.. So I'm tired today.. I was tired yesterday, and tried to take a nap but I just couldn't sleep.. Even took sleeping pills last night.. Nope.. Didn't help at all..
I have been doing my usual routine during the day, but it seems like I am working on auto pilot or something.. My head is in a fog and I can't focus on anything.. My friend Angie whom I grew up with called yesterday to tell me that she had given birth to a baby boy five days ago, and I had to make myself sound happy for her.. Not that I am not happy for her, but it just didn't seem all that wonderful to me.. The whole time she was talking I just kept thinking "ok, Angie has had a baby, ho hum."..
Then later my good friend Kathy called to tell me that she just had an MRI and that they found a tumor in her frontal lobe.. I actually had to fake concern.. Again "ho hum".. how f*cked up is that??
I'm sure it's just that I miss Skie.. At least I hope that's what it is..
*ho hum*